Five Years Gone

It’s been……..

43,824 hours.

1,830 days.

60 Months.

Five Years Gone.

Thinking back over the amount of time since VST left us, my mind plays tricks. Some days, it seems his death happened a lifetime ago, while other days, the memories are so fresh they seem like they were made yesterday. I guess our minds are like that sometimes.

I married VST in a strip-mall church in Fresno, California on a cold day in January. I wore a beautiful wedding dress, which horrified my mother because I was a divorcee. Actually, I managed to horrify my poor mom a lot as a wild spirit of the 70’s.

That day, VST and I didn’t really know what the future would hold but we were willing to take a chance. And boy, what a ride it was. With one 6 year-old, two 8 year-olds, and twins that were 11, we took the reins and rode off into the sunset. Just didn’t know the twilight of his years would come so soon.

Five years ago, on April 8th, 2020, my sweet VST left this earth on the Zephyr winds of Virgina City, Nevada. That morning, the kids had just run to the store for a moment to get some more moving boxes. After checking on him, I opened the bedroom door a crack to the beautiful spring morning so he could sneak away. In the time it took to pour another cup of coffee, he did.

There will never be enough pages in enough books to explain our life together. Not enough laughter or tears to explain the journey after those two young lovers exchanged their vows so long ago.

To VST. You know every word of the story. Thank you for making sure everything would be great. You made sure it always was. I’m doing a pretty good job of making sure it still is.