Whatever “normal” is. At least a New normal. My littles are a resilient little bunch. Even with an older gentleman substituting, they did their job wonderfully. I received a nice note from the substitute about the class and their behavior. The usual suspects were on the list for both good and not so good accomplishments. The huge stack of work that I’d prepared was completed. All seemed to have gone as planned.
But as with any absence, it takes a minute to roll back into routine, especially when a routine is just being established. That’s for both the children and me, by the way.
Preparing dinner for one isn’t something I enjoy, or even want to do on a good day. And after being with 20 littles from 8-3:30, I want three things. Low light, a cold room, and food service. At least two days a week, I’m going out for dinner. Not sure where, but I’m going out for dinner. It might even be to the city to the east. A drive might just do me good. I’ve exhausted all meal options in my town.
How is it that a town of over 20,000 can’t have a descent restaurant? Even the roach coaches that frequent the town are better than the stick and brick establishments. Dismal at best. Yesterday, I went to one of the six restaurants in town. It’s in a casino just on the east side by out of town park. I parked in a full parking lot, realizing this must be the place for the best food ever.
Not even.
Everyone was crowding in for the hot game of bingo. As I ate in hamburger and sweet potato fries in glorious solitude, the bingo guy droned on. For those of you that know me well, Hamburger and sweet potato fries is the only thing on the menu for me. The buns need to be grilled, there better be no “Secret Sauce” or mayo, and the meat need not be pink. Simple. Or it should be.
The loud speaker blared in the restaurant with Bingo numbers. I had to laugh at the voice of the man calling numbers. He sounded like he had smoked something other than cigarettes, had a few to many drinks during the day, OR just got done teaching 20 littles.
“B-4”.
An extra long pause.
“N-#”. Another extra long pause.
“O-something.”
“1,000 to the gal in the blue.”
My ears perked up at that.
$1,000?
Maybe I’m in the wrong game.
After finishing my dinner in a darker, cold, somewhat quiet restaurant, I drove home. Oliver was overly excited to greet me, for one reason only.
Dinner.
I was 30 minutes past his dinner. How could I? He was crazed after a day of crazy. I hate kennel cough. Oliver’s vacations at puppy camp help both him AND me. We get cabin fever. I’ll be glad when the kennel cough season is over. We’ll both appreciate his next visit all the more.
After one more hour the work of grading papers and entering grades in my grade book, it was finally time to stop. Last night’s soak in the hot tub was like a trip to the spa and Christmas all rolled into one. I’m so blessed to live in a silent neighborhood with brilliant sky hanging over the loveliness of Winterpast. I think I’ve never enjoyed the spa as much as I did during last night’s late summer sunset.
With that my day was over. It was filled with drama, the details of which I cannot speak. There were intense moments in which the teacher won, because this teacher always wins. There were sensitive moments of shared hugs, both adult and little. There was plenty of heat amid the ongoing saga of the broken air. There was a sweet apology wrapped in a smile and lots of work.
All this takes me back to the fall of 1996 when I was a brand new teacher with a brand new set of 1st grade littles. These adorable little kiddos were my first educational responsibility and they taught me so much. The very first girl who read her very first book while sitting very close to me made me cry. Remembering it as if it was yesterday, she is my inspiration. It wasn’t an easy journey for her to become a real reader, but, she made it. I know. I was the first person to whom she read an entire book.
Other things have made me cry through my 22 year career.
Mean, egotistical, vindictive principals and superintendents. A moldy room that made my littles and I sick for one whole year. The fencing of a community playground, ending weekend use. The death of 35 children over the course of 5 years as a hospital teacher. Useless spending of tax dollars. Wasted time on senseless professional development. Mean parents. Abused and psychologically abused children. The murder of a student. Cancer in a co-teacher.
Having lived out school drama for that many years, there was bound to be every kind of celebration and tragedy known to life. After all is said and done, school is just a micro-community.
I can’t explain how this summer of miracles has changed my life for the better. It’s become my favorite summer of all. That’s saying a lot because I hate summer with a passion. I’ve learned more about myself in the past three months than I have in a very long time.
I am finding that I’m stronger than I thought. Even though I’m exhausted at the end of the day, it’s a welcome feeling. I have tangible benchmarks and end goals that affect the lives of 20 littles. I’m teaching them about respect, kindness, goodness, and friendship. I’m also teaching them about time management and pride in a job well done.
How did I ever think for one moment that I was too old to teach? For goodness sake, I’m at my prime. So far, although physically beat up at the end of the day, by morning I’m repaired. With the right shoes and a good attitude, I plan to make it to June 2nd healthier and down a few pounds. That’s a win-win.
More tomorrow.